heart of darkness

Wed, 08 Aug 2007 14:18:09 GMT

looking back at me before army and me now
i've definitely grown smaller sideways
and am i glad that i can actually pass my ippt
WITH SILVER NO LESS DARNIT!

WOOHOO! fitness can indeed be trained if the hard way
done things that i wouldnt have imagined doing before
and well its really changed me for the better
all the same i'd really want to get out of army and get on wif uni

life's more settled now. duno why i even updated.
passing out soon. signaler

Sun, 25 Mar 2007 15:17:39 GMT

i've been posted to sispec. goodbye civilian life, and hello sispec
shit happens. we suffer. we endure. and we are stronger for it

Sat, 10 Mar 2007 11:02:14 GMT

10 March 2007. 3 days more to POP. the culmination of BMT.
if bmt has taught me anything, its that its not just about the body - its also about the mind

Mon, 12 Feb 2007 09:43:47 GMT

8 - the Asserter
Thanks for taking the test !

you chose AY - your Enneagram type is EIGHT (aka "The Challenger").

"I must be strong"

Asserters are direct, self-reliant, self-confident, and protective.

How to Get Along with Me

Stand up for yourself... and me.
Be confident, strong, and direct.
Don't gossip about me or betray my trust.
Be vulnerable and share your feelings. See and acknowledge my tender, vulnerable side.
Give me space to be alone.
Acknowledge the contributions I make, but don't flatter me.
I often speak in an assertive way. Don't automatically assume it's a personal attack.
When I scream, curse, and stomp around, try to remember that's just the way I am.

What I Like About Being a Eight

being independent and self-reliant
being able to take charge and meet challenges head on
being courageous, straightforward, and honest
getting all the enjoyment I can out of life
supporting, empowering, and protecting those close to me
upholding just causes

What's Hard About Being a Eight

overwhelming people with my bluntness; scaring them away when I don't intend to
being restless and impatient with others' incompetence
sticking my neck out for people and receiving no appreciation for it
never forgetting injuries or injustices
putting too much pressure on myself
getting high blood pressure when people don't obey the rules or when things don't go right

Eights as Children Often

are independent; have an inner strength and a fighting spirit
are sometimes loners
seize control so they won't be controlled
fugure out others' weaknesses
attack verbally or physically when provoked
take charge in the family because they perceive themselves as the strongest, or grow up in difficult or abusive surroundings

Eights as Parents

are often loyal, caring, involved, and devoted
are sometimes overprotective
can be demanding, controlling, and rigid

Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele

The Enneagram Made Easy
Discover the 9 Types of People
Harper SanFrancisco, 1994, 161 pages

You liked the test? so please don't forget to RATE it...
but remember! it had only two questions!!! ;-)

you wanna know MORE?
so check out, what Google found about your type...
or do you prefer to

You are not completely happy with the result?!
You chose AY

Would you rather have chosen:

BY (FOUR)

CY (SIX)

AX (SEVEN)

AZ (THREE)

My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 99% on ABC

You scored higher than 99% on XYZ

Link: The Quick & Painless ENNEAGRAM Test written by felk on OkCupid, home of the The Dating Persona Test

Sun, 14 Jan 2007 07:46:45 GMT

Spellsword
74% Combativeness, 46% Sneakiness, 67% Intellect, 50% Spirituality

Aggressive, but with the brains to back it up: You are a Spellsword!
Score! You have a prestige class. A prestige class can only be taken after you’ve fulfilled certain requirements. This may mean that you're an exceptionally talented person, but it probably doesn't.
Spellswords combine arcane might with combat know-how. They're much tougher than mages, like to wear armor, and can cast spells through their weapons. They're very, very, good at doing lots of damage to a single target very quickly, and while not quite as tough as most fighters, are still pretty hard to kill.
You're both smart and aggressive, which means that you're probably pretty dangerous when pissed off. You also tend to be somewhat straightforward, which is nice, and don’t have much use for spirituality or mysticism.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 99% on Combativeness

You scored higher than 99% on Sneakiness

You scored higher than 99% on Intellect

You scored higher than 99% on Spirituality

Link: The RPG Class Test written by MFlowers on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

Sat, 30 Dec 2006 18:01:38 GMT

donloo took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test!

"Seeks luxury, sensuous comfort, and the indulgence..."

Click here to read the rest of the results.

Sat, 30 Dec 2006 17:54:42 GMT

I Don't Want You To Say Goodbye

I don’t want to say goodbye
Let the stars shine through
I don’t want to say goodbye
All I want to do is live with you

Just like the light of the morning
After the darkness has gone
The shadow of my love is falling
On a place where the sun always shines
Don’t you know that’s where our hearts both belong?

‘Cause I don’t want to say goodbyw
Let the sun shine through
No, I don’t want to say goodbye
All I want to do is live with you

Together, our two hearts are strong
Don’t you know that’s where our hearts both belong?

‘Cause I don’t want to say goodbyw
Let the stars shine through
No, I don’t want to say goodbye
All I want to do is live with you

All I want to do is live with you.

Mon, 11 Dec 2006 07:38:35 GMT

be gone on friday...

countdown to bmt

Mon, 04 Dec 2006 13:30:53 GMT

11 more days to bmt..

i am rather bloody amused by this

Thu, 30 Nov 2006 17:04:25 GMT

A few words can make all the difference

Thu, 02 Nov 2006 17:50:52 GMT

more definitions coming from a Bored Mind

Optimist: One who lives in the best of all possible worlds
Pessimist: One who lives in the best of all possible worlds

Priest: An extremely pious man in service to his faith
Fanatic: An extremely pious man in service to a faith opposed to yours

Teacher: Someone who knows everything he/she doesn't know
Student: Someone who knows everything

Friend: Someone who comes to talk to you unbidden, frequently
Irritant: Someone you don't like who comes to talk to you unbidden, frequently

Good Citizen: Someone who knows the law, and is determined to abide by it
Good Lawyer: Someone who knows the law, and is determined to profit from it

Communism: A system where everyone works for the greater good of the society
Democracy: A system where everyone works for his/her own good

Absolute Monarchy: A system where one man claims to know what's best for everyone
Absolute Anarchy: A system where every man claims to know what's best for everyone

Extrovert: A sociable person who just likes making friends
Flirt/Slut: A sociable girl who just like making male friends

if you dont get it at first, think again. they're not funny mostly, but juz dark humour in one way or another. be back wif more when i think of more

bad prose ahead

Sun, 29 Oct 2006 14:42:47 GMT

Perseverance - the drive to conquer the odds, against all odds, even when the odds are clearly stacked up against you, and falling on you. A quality to be Admired.
Nagginess - the assholic tendencies to keep bugging away at something until the person either 1) tells you to screw off and go away or 2) gives way out of sheer exasperation. A quality to be Loathed.

Studying - an action done by a person well respected for his 'smarts', comprising, but not limited to, reading textbooks, notes, practice papers and anything under the sun, in order to score good grades for examinations. An activity to be Admired
Mugging - an action done by a person held in contempt for his singlemindedness, which upon first glance is exactly identical to Studying, and is unlikely to chance upon second glance. An activity to be Snorted/Sniffed At.

Power Nap - a short break of around half an hour spent sleeping, certified by experts and tested in various trials to have improved the concentration powers of students in school. A Good Use of Time.
Sleeping in Class - a short break of around half an hour, usually less, spent sleeping during lesson time, universally condemned by teachers around the nation. A Waste of Time (i'm not so sure tho...)

Opportunist - a person who seizes every chance to enrich himself or increase his influence, usually in a clever way. A Role Model.
Scumbag - a person who seizes every chance to enrich himself or increase his influence, at the expense of others if need be. A Bastard.

ehh this sucks forget it i shdnt have updated.

Sun, 01 Oct 2006 16:16:11 GMT

hey i hafnt blogged in like ages man
been living the life after prelims
trying to forget that the exams are coming
argh reality is sinking in.
so far grades are ok, except for chem which abit disappointed
BUT OMG BIO HASNT COME BACK YET AND I HAVE THIS FEELING IM NOT GONNA SURVIVE IT
too bad i'll have to wait sumore.
man i'll realli have to start studying
CRIKEY I FAILED MY MATH S OMGOMGOMG
DEATH FROM ABOVE
*is struck by lightning*

Mon, 04 Sep 2006 15:15:26 GMT

man life sucks
i''ve been having the tummy aches for AGES man
since the day after gp prelims man this sucks
eek i need to study man STUDY
and i want to 1) play fable 2) betrayal on the house on the hill and 3) get a psc scholarship

first 2 not compatible wif last one.

Tue, 29 Aug 2006 13:00:34 GMT

today was one of the worst days in my life.
woke up early, wif stomach cramps, can hardly straighten w/o cramping
must have shitted like damn lot of times, like watery airjet *wince*
not funny, realli. semi-fever and body aches.
man i'm so lucky this didnt happen yesterday or goodbye to gp prelims!

Sun, 27 Aug 2006 14:14:14 GMT

i've been sleeping a shitload these few days
i juz nid to lie down on the bed and *peng* i sleep liaos
and not sleep for 15mins tt kind, is sleep for 3 hrs tt kind!
die lah. sheet. aiya anw to all who read my blog and to all those who dont as well

gd luck for prelims! gp prelims tomorrow!

Wed, 23 Aug 2006 12:37:09 GMT

i wish i had the proper mood to study
i wanna go for the master of pharmacy programme in king's college!
eek i need to offer Chem (core), 1 bio science (Biology BLEARGH) and 1 physical science (maths/physics)
darn why bio? EURGH. i hate it i hate it. oh well.
more and more i find myself wondering if i should be trying for chemistry in the united states
cornell's talk was quite informative and frankly quite seductive
i wonder if i should go there...
but my first and foremost dream is still be a pharmaceutical researcher
whether i get a chem degree or pharmacy degree, i dont realli mind, but pharmacy would definitely be a bonus :)

WHY DONT I HAVE THE MOOD TO MUG????

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 14:48:55 GMT

i've been tagged by szeyen to do this so...

Post 8 songs u like in any order then tag 8 frens to do it. if u like one of the songs on ur fren's list, bold it and mark it wif a (I). If u love one of the songs on ur fren's list, bold it and mark it wif a (II)

1. Change Your Mind - the Killers
2. Popcorn - Crazy Frog (i love the video sia damn cute)
3. All These Things That I've Done - the Killers
4. Smile Like You Mean It - the Killers
5. Runaway - Groove Coverage
6. Dragostea Din Tei - O-zone
7. Dani California - Red Hot Chilli Peppers
8. Jenny Was A Friend Of Mine - the Killers

well now seems like i gotta get more songs to listen to!

tagged...

1. pam
2. incasmein
3. falklands
4. lionel ho
5.
6.
7.
8.

the blanks are anyone else that actually reads my blog and is inclined to do it blah blah hahah

man life's so hectic. heng ah today biochem test not so bad after all. sia la

Tue, 08 Aug 2006 14:15:02 GMT

i aint updated in ages.
life is proceeding at a hectic pace.
regardless i have not regretted any moment of it
bear selling day wuz a great success, we sold 600+ bears!
it never fails to touch me how some people will donate money and not claim the bear, its so heartwarming
then again there are those who will stare at you in an unfriendly way when u approach them
and there are the slackers who claim to be doing the selling, but in fact they're slacking
i HATE those, i mean here we are trying to change a small part of the world
and you're juz here for the cip hours
WORSE you dont even want to work for it, you dont even have a conscience
FUCK you i say FUCK you for being such a jerk

sorry i got abit carried away there.
for those who stayed to help us sell even beyond the 5 bears limit YOU ROCK
to all who bought a bear, even thian who got nabbed by the mingzhou haaha
thanks man for ur support. all proceeds go towards minds.
anyone interested in selling bears again this sunday?
we've got some 300+ more bears to sell, and we need volunteers!
same thing. 10 hrs. 5 bears. interested pls message me name, class (if vj), ic number and contact number :) spread arnd!

Wed, 02 Aug 2006 14:03:04 GMT

argh so stressed juz being part of a coordinating team
and im already quite slack sia
gah. im so dead la. boohoo

Tue, 01 Aug 2006 13:04:48 GMT

PLUGGING CIP!
this sunday 6 Aug along orchard road.
selling bears for $10 each! support me and my group!
if wanna sell as volunteer oso can
sell finish arnd 5 to 10 bears, we'll count it 10 cip hours
contact me @91722518 and leave ur contact and ic number wif me

more details coming up in further updates! wanna buy the bear oso can!
contact me for details!
btw we're selling the bears to raise funds for MINDS
yeaps :) hmm if u wanna see a pic of the bear its here courtesy of dear szeyen

lolz

Fri, 28 Jul 2006 15:20:24 GMT

Comment on this entry and:

1. I'll respond with something random about you
2. I'll challenge you to try something
3. I'll pick a colour that I associate with you
4. I'll tell you something I like about you
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your blog

thanks _smileyface. duno leh, i tink dark is my natural disposition
*shrugs* haha i dun even rmb wad meme i tagged u on, must be damn long ago la
noobs :P

Thu, 20 Jul 2006 15:21:37 GMT

so. it's time i thought on my last year and a half in VJC
i feel that realli, i have changed alot alot since i came to vj
the warmth and spontaneity of the vj environment has realli opened me up
its like in RI, there was school spirit
in vj, the school IS the spirit, and its infused with life

all these experiences, joining CAP, HAP, OGL, running for SC (omg la tt's bad loh)
they've each changed me bit by bit
i mean, its not like im a great person now, but im better than i used to be
i sppose its not the best thing to have changed so much, but then again
i tink im slowly learning to find out what being a people person is like
it's time i realli went out into the world instead of being stuck in a book

well...i miss 2S03I, and im gonna miss 05S14 as well.
most of all i miss 3T/4T, who have ever been close to my heart
would that i could recapture such brotherhood when i go out into the real world
we're no longer children, we can no longer play carefree
big brother's watching and he aint gonna leave

Sat, 15 Jul 2006 12:42:13 GMT

You Are An INTP

The Thinker

You are analytical and logical - and on a quest to learn everything you can.
Smart and complex, you always love a new intellectual challenge.
Your biggest pet peeve is people who slow you down with trivial chit chat.
A quiet maverick, you tend to ignore rules and authority whenever you feel like it.

You would make an excellent mathematician, programmer, or professor.

What's Your Personality Type?

wah this is quite accurate. same result as before when i took the MBTI
alrite summary of my ct2s.
math A, physics A, chem B, bio E
overall ==> DON HAS BEEN OWNED BY CT2

well i shall have to live my mom's displeasure.
screw bio, its giving me so much problem.
maybe i realli should have gone for FMaths or sth instead of bio :(

EDIT: some information abt INTPs here LONG LONG info, so skip if not interested. nothing else behind :)

EDIT 2: too damn long. here's the link if u are interested haha
An INTP Profile

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 12:26:29 GMT

arghhhhh i feel like a different person now
the holidays seem to have changed me quite a lot, and i dont quite know why
or maybe im the same and nothing's really changed
i realise i've been doing a fair bit of unloading on my frens recently
and the worst thing is, i dont even know why i do it.
i've no idea why i suddenly feel so stressed that i have to unload
mind you, it has a good, therapeutic effect, but its not fair to my frens
who have to hear me rant and go on and on abt my life
argh better not to wonder why and soldier on
"their's not to make reply, their's not to ponder why, their's but to do and die"

inasmuch as jc life is stressful, im dreading army life far more
i tink compared to army life, jc life is gonna be a cakewalk