heart of darkness

10:13 pm

looking back at me before army and me now
i've definitely grown smaller sideways
and am i glad that i can actually pass my ippt
WITH SILVER NO LESS DARNIT!

WOOHOO! fitness can indeed be trained if the hard way
done things that i wouldnt have imagined doing before
and well its really changed me for the better
all the same i'd really want to get out of army and get on wif uni

life's more settled now. duno why i even updated.
passing out soon. signaler

11:16 pm

i've been posted to sispec. goodbye civilian life, and hello sispec
shit happens. we suffer. we endure. and we are stronger for it

06:57 pm

10 March 2007. 3 days more to POP. the culmination of BMT.
if bmt has taught me anything, its that its not just about the body - its also about the mind

05:48 pm

8 - the Asserter Thanks for taking the test !

you chose AY - your Enneagram type is EIGHT (aka "The Challenger"). "I must be strong" Asserters are direct, self-reliant, self-confident, and protective. How to Get Along with Me Stand up for yourself... and me. Be confident, strong, and direct. Don't gossip about me or betray my trust. Be vulnerable and share your feelings. See and acknowledge my tender, vulnerable side. Give me space to be alone. Acknowledge the contributions I make, but don't flatter me. I often speak in an assertive way. Don't automatically assume it's a personal attack. When I scream, curse, and stomp around, try to remember that's just the way I am. What I Like About Being a Eight being independent and self-reliant being able to take charge and meet challenges head on being courageous, straightforward, and honest getting all the enjoyment I can out of life supporting, empowering, and protecting those close to me upholding just causes What's Hard About Being a Eight overwhelming people with my bluntness; scaring them away when I don't intend to being restless and impatient with others' incompetence sticking my neck out for people and receiving no appreciation for it never forgetting injuries or injustices putting too much pressure on myself getting high blood pressure when people don't obey the rules or when things don't go right Eights as Children Often are independent; have an inner strength and a fighting spirit are sometimes loners seize control so they won't be controlled fugure out others' weaknesses attack verbally or physically when provoked take charge in the family because they perceive themselves as the strongest, or grow up in difficult or abusive surroundings Eights as Parents are often loyal, caring, involved, and devoted are sometimes overprotective can be demanding, controlling, and rigid Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele The Enneagram Made Easy Discover the 9 Types of People Harper SanFrancisco, 1994, 161 pages You liked the test? so please don't forget to RATE it... but remember! it had only two questions!!! ;-) you wanna know MORE? so check out, what Google found about your type... or do you prefer to You are not completely happy with the result?! You chose AY Would you rather have chosen: BY (FOUR) CY (SIX) AX (SEVEN) AZ (THREE)

03:46 pm

Spellsword 74% Combativeness, 46% Sneakiness, 67% Intellect, 50% Spirituality

Aggressive, but with the brains to back it up: You are a Spellsword! Score! You have a prestige class. A prestige class can only be taken after you’ve fulfilled certain requirements. This may mean that you're an exceptionally talented person, but it probably doesn't. Spellswords combine arcane might with combat know-how. They're much tougher than mages, like to wear armor, and can cast spells through their weapons. They're very, very, good at doing lots of damage to a single target very quickly, and while not quite as tough as most fighters, are still pretty hard to kill. You're both smart and aggressive, which means that you're probably pretty dangerous when pissed off. You also tend to be somewhat straightforward, which is nice, and don’t have much use for spirituality or mysticism.

06:01 pm

donloo took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test! "Seeks luxury, sensuous comfort, and the indulgence..." Click here to read the rest of the results.

05:54 pm

I Don't Want You To Say Goodbye

I don’t want to say goodbye
Let the stars shine through
I don’t want to say goodbye
All I want to do is live with you

Just like the light of the morning
After the darkness has gone
The shadow of my love is falling
On a place where the sun always shines
Don’t you know that’s where our hearts both belong?

‘Cause I don’t want to say goodbyw
Let the sun shine through
No, I don’t want to say goodbye
All I want to do is live with you

Together, our two hearts are strong
Don’t you know that’s where our hearts both belong?

‘Cause I don’t want to say goodbyw
Let the stars shine through
No, I don’t want to say goodbye
All I want to do is live with you

All I want to do is live with you.

07:38 am

01:30 pm - countdown to bmt

11 more days to bmt..

05:04 pm - i am rather bloody amused by this

05:50 pm - A few words can make all the difference

more definitions coming from a Bored Mind

Optimist: One who lives in the best of all possible worlds
Pessimist: One who lives in the best of all possible worlds

Priest: An extremely pious man in service to his faith
Fanatic: An extremely pious man in service to a faith opposed to yours

Teacher: Someone who knows everything he/she doesn't know
Student: Someone who knows everything

Friend: Someone who comes to talk to you unbidden, frequently
Irritant: Someone you don't like who comes to talk to you unbidden, frequently

Good Citizen: Someone who knows the law, and is determined to abide by it
Good Lawyer: Someone who knows the law, and is determined to profit from it

Communism: A system where everyone works for the greater good of the society
Democracy: A system where everyone works for his/her own good

Absolute Monarchy: A system where one man claims to know what's best for everyone
Absolute Anarchy: A system where every man claims to know what's best for everyone

Extrovert: A sociable person who just likes making friends
Flirt/Slut: A sociable girl who just like making male friends

if you dont get it at first, think again. they're not funny mostly, but juz dark humour in one way or another. be back wif more when i think of more

02:25 pm - bad prose ahead

Perseverance - the drive to conquer the odds, against all odds, even when the odds are clearly stacked up against you, and falling on you. A quality to be Admired.
Nagginess - the assholic tendencies to keep bugging away at something until the person either 1) tells you to screw off and go away or 2) gives way out of sheer exasperation. A quality to be Loathed.


Studying - an action done by a person well respected for his 'smarts', comprising, but not limited to, reading textbooks, notes, practice papers and anything under the sun, in order to score good grades for examinations. An activity to be Admired
Mugging - an action done by a person held in contempt for his singlemindedness, which upon first glance is exactly identical to Studying, and is unlikely to chance upon second glance. An activity to be Snorted/Sniffed At.


Power Nap - a short break of around half an hour spent sleeping, certified by experts and tested in various trials to have improved the concentration powers of students in school. A Good Use of Time.
Sleeping in Class - a short break of around half an hour, usually less, spent sleeping during lesson time, universally condemned by teachers around the nation. A Waste of Time (i'm not so sure tho...)


Opportunist - a person who seizes every chance to enrich himself or increase his influence, usually in a clever way. A Role Model.
Scumbag - a person who seizes every chance to enrich himself or increase his influence, at the expense of others if need be. A Bastard.

ehh this sucks forget it i shdnt have updated.

12:16 am

hey i hafnt blogged in like ages man
been living the life after prelims
trying to forget that the exams are coming
argh reality is sinking in.
so far grades are ok, except for chem which abit disappointed
BUT OMG BIO HASNT COME BACK YET AND I HAVE THIS FEELING IM NOT GONNA SURVIVE IT
too bad i'll have to wait sumore.
man i'll realli have to start studying
CRIKEY I FAILED MY MATH S OMGOMGOMG
DEATH FROM ABOVE
*is struck by lightning*

11:13 pm

man life sucks
i''ve been having the tummy aches for AGES man
since the day after gp prelims man this sucks
eek i need to study man STUDY
and i want to 1) play fable 2) betrayal on the house on the hill and 3) get a psc scholarship

first 2 not compatible wif last one.

08:55 pm

today was one of the worst days in my life.
woke up early, wif stomach cramps, can hardly straighten w/o cramping
must have shitted like damn lot of times, like watery airjet *wince*
not funny, realli. semi-fever and body aches.
man i'm so lucky this didnt happen yesterday or goodbye to gp prelims!

10:13 pm

i've been sleeping a shitload these few days
i juz nid to lie down on the bed and *peng* i sleep liaos
and not sleep for 15mins tt kind, is sleep for 3 hrs tt kind!
die lah. sheet. aiya anw to all who read my blog and to all those who dont as well

gd luck for prelims! gp prelims tomorrow!

08:34 pm

i wish i had the proper mood to study
i wanna go for the master of pharmacy programme in king's college!
eek i need to offer Chem (core), 1 bio science (Biology BLEARGH) and 1 physical science (maths/physics)
darn why bio? EURGH. i hate it i hate it. oh well.
more and more i find myself wondering if i should be trying for chemistry in the united states
cornell's talk was quite informative and frankly quite seductive
i wonder if i should go there...
but my first and foremost dream is still be a pharmaceutical researcher
whether i get a chem degree or pharmacy degree, i dont realli mind, but pharmacy would definitely be a bonus :)

WHY DONT I HAVE THE MOOD TO MUG????

10:43 pm

i've been tagged by szeyen to do this so...

Post 8 songs u like in any order then tag 8 frens to do it. if u like one of the songs on ur fren's list, bold it and mark it wif a (I). If u love one of the songs on ur fren's list, bold it and mark it wif a (II)

1. Change Your Mind - the Killers
2. Popcorn - Crazy Frog (i love the video sia damn cute)
3. All These Things That I've Done - the Killers
4. Smile Like You Mean It - the Killers
5. Runaway - Groove Coverage
6. Dragostea Din Tei - O-zone
7. Dani California - Red Hot Chilli Peppers
8. Jenny Was A Friend Of Mine - the Killers

well now seems like i gotta get more songs to listen to!

tagged...

1. pam
2. incasmein
3. falklands
4. lionel ho
5.
6.
7.
8.

the blanks are anyone else that actually reads my blog and is inclined to do it blah blah hahah

man life's so hectic. heng ah today biochem test not so bad after all. sia la

10:10 pm

i aint updated in ages.
life is proceeding at a hectic pace.
regardless i have not regretted any moment of it
bear selling day wuz a great success, we sold 600+ bears!
it never fails to touch me how some people will donate money and not claim the bear, its so heartwarming
then again there are those who will stare at you in an unfriendly way when u approach them
and there are the slackers who claim to be doing the selling, but in fact they're slacking
i HATE those, i mean here we are trying to change a small part of the world
and you're juz here for the cip hours
WORSE you dont even want to work for it, you dont even have a conscience
FUCK you i say FUCK you for being such a jerk

sorry i got abit carried away there.
for those who stayed to help us sell even beyond the 5 bears limit YOU ROCK
to all who bought a bear, even thian who got nabbed by the mingzhou haaha
thanks man for ur support. all proceeds go towards minds.
anyone interested in selling bears again this sunday?
we've got some 300+ more bears to sell, and we need volunteers!
same thing. 10 hrs. 5 bears. interested pls message me name, class (if vj), ic number and contact number :) spread arnd!

09:58 pm

argh so stressed juz being part of a coordinating team
and im already quite slack sia
gah. im so dead la. boohoo